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Where were you when everything was falling apart?
When the words got to me, and shattered my heart.
Where were you when everything became to much for me?
I got used to it, and thought that was how it was supposed to be.
Where were you when I was feeling all this pain?
When I was hurt and sun instantly turned into rain.
Where were you when I had no one there?
That’s right, you gave up on me and didn’t care..

I wake up in the morning, the sun is shining and the world is bright.
I get up only to find I have a whole day to go, will I make it ‘till night?

I stand up and put my slippers on, and walk to my mirror.
I put my glasses on to make my vision a bit clearer.

The sight I see is full of pure disgust and hate.
I try to make it better, so I don’t finish my plate.
I see girl standing there with a very low self esteem.
A girl, who is yearning for someone. Can’t you hear her scream?

I stand there just staring, hating all I see..
Why cant I be someone else, and someone else be me?

I just stand there looking, turning around..
When I can’t handle the ugly anymore I colapse to the ground.

In tears I look up at my reflection, and decide this is it.
Whiping the crystal blue tear off my face, and whisper, “i quit.”

Little do you know my pain,
It is becoming stronger.
Please don’t leave me here like this.

I want to remember you as a woman of smiles and knowledge beyond her years.
But when I think of your name all that comes to mind is all the hurt and all the tears.

I want to remember you as the woman with a beautiful heart.
But, I remember you as the woman who’s world fell apart.

I want to remember you as the woman who was always happy, and here to stay.
But the drugs you cared about more took you away..

I want to remember you as the woman who I could look up too.
But, instead you are a reminder of what I should and shouldn’t do.

I want to remember you as the woman who took up for me.
But, instead, you showed me how messed up one person could be..

Ever been so hurt, it was hard to see?
Everything this world has taught you to be?
You close your eyes, it’s your golden disguise. From the world you’re mind and soul truly dispise.
Ever cried so much, you could swim in your hurt? Paddle through all the fucks you give and treat everyone like dirt.
It wasn’t like you ever wanted to be this way..
But you’re focused on the past and not today.
Everyone always asks you whats the matter.
Little do they know, your mind is filled with pain and endless chatter. If only they could see who you really are.
They’d know each story, to go with each scar.